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Ally McBeal is just over. This week, it had been really exciting. What happened during the last few episodes was that Ally had met up with Greg ( a doctor who appeared last season. Both Ally and him had been attracted to each other then, but he had to leave for an out-of-state posting. But now he's back for good ). Well, so for 3 weeks ( in the show ), she had fallen in love all over again ..... 'cos Greg is the sweetest guy you can ever think of. With such a loving and sensitive guy around, Ally finally found the courage to trust in love; she regained the confidence in a man; she reopened the door of her emotions and soul to another person who may just walk out of her life any moment he chooses to. And guess what happened ? That jerk, Billy, has suddenly " discovered" that Ally is the one he has loved the most, not Georgia. And so, it's his right to tell Ally exactly how he feels just when Ally has found a new life ! It doesn't matter that he's already married, he doesn't seem to care how he was the one who double timed Ally and then broke up with her, he doesn't care a damn about what he's doing to Ally right now. What selfishness. What cruelty. What hyprocrasy. My stomach felt sick and I was hysterically screaming inside " NO ALLY ! DON'T DO IT ! PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF ! WHERE WAS HE WHEN YOU NEEDED HIM MOST ? WHAT WAS HE FEELING WHEN HE HURT YOU SO BADLY THAT YOU ALMOST COULDN'T GET UP ! NO ..... ARRRGH ..... OH NO ........ DON'T KISS HIM !!!!! NO ........ HE'S JUST A SELFISH, DAMNED SELFISH JERK ! HE'S MARRIED, REMEMBER, TO GEORGIA AND NOT TO YOU !!!!! " I guess she didn't hear me. I agonized and winced in pain as Billy closed the door and kissed her. She was just about to leave and meet Greg for dinner, and now .... Billy kissed Ally tenderly, she looked confused. They paused. He kissed her again, this time holding her head .... they both dropped their coats .... and oh no.... not another John and Nealy thingy ...... and hmm... had it been censored ? Oh shit, how easy it is to forget what you had gone through, what you had suffered, how you had sobbed through the long lonely nights ....... when the person you love with all your soul and heart is kissing you right now. All the distance and time apart does not mean a damn. Nothing really matters now because he's kissing you, and you're his just for this brief moment which unfortunately, will haunt you for the rest of your life. Tears welled up in my eyes. I cried in silence. Why do this to yourself ? Don't kid yourself - this man, your ex-lover, had given you up once. He had, on his own accord, decided in cold blood, to throw you away. He has already made a conscious decision to dump you for another woman, and he has married her. Don't kid yourself, Ally. Don't ..... he'll NEVER leave Georgia for you. He'll never go through a shitty divorce and months of guilt just so that he can hold you and call you his again. He's just a fucking idiotic dog in a manger who can't stand others having what he had to give up ( because he's married ). And judging from the trailers after the show, Ally had broke emotionally again. She's confused, lost, and hates the whole world and herself. She's all alone again. I can see where the show and heading towards .... and I can't bring myself to watch it ...... Don't think I can sleep tonight. So disturbing to see what happened in real life take place in reel life again ...... brings back bad memories ......
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